Does anyone know how hard it is

Does anyone know how hard it is? Everything! I've been trying to lose weight since the beginning of the year. I'm not blaming anyone in particular for my weight gain - I did it to myself. (I'm sure getting divorced, moving, feeling sorry for myself didn't help). But I have been trying. My goal - well, I have a couple of goals. One of my goals is to get into Gap jeans. When Sarah was home in July, we actually bought matching pj's from Gap - and mine fit. A little tight but it was a good moment. But I want to be able to go in, pick a size and not have to pray they will fit me.

My other goal is to do a half marathon. I didn't know this was a goal of mine but it turns out it is. Which I have been working on all year. Yes, that's right, since March I have been training. This past weekend I walked 7.5 miles in 2 hours 6 minutes and 56 seconds. My daughters goal for me was 2 hours 7 min. I did it. I always try to do my walks in the time she tells me - but I never do. I think she was proud of me that I did it. I know I was proud of myself. Honestly, I can't believe I'm doing it. In March I couldn't have walked 7.5 miles much less in 2 hours and 7 minutes.

The walking has helped my weight loss. I'm in pants I haven't worn in years. I can wear a pair of pants and be able to breath. But the scale isn't moving that fast. Don't you think God should know how hard I am working at this and let the weight come off? Every day I have to still talk myself out of eating something that's not good for me. The urge is still there to eat the wrong stuff. or too much stuff. Please when will it be easier?