I'm trying

OK, I went to the gym on Saturday. I've been going at least 4 times a week. On Saturday, I wasn't in a good mood - don't know why just a little blue. Well, one of the reasons was my nephew (Robert) graduated from high school and my sister, 2 brothers and dad were going. I would have loved to go - but it wasn't in the budget. So I get blue - I miss my family. I so wish we all lived closer. I have no family close by - except my son and family. Daughter lives in NYC and is busy living her life - as it should be but sometimes I just wish I we all lived near each other.
But at the gym, I'm walking on the treadmill - and why is it I always look like I'm almost running?? Well, some young, blond, skinny girl gets on the treadmill next to me and just starts walking at 3.5!! It took me 12 minutes to get up to 3.5!! And she's just strolling along looking all cute and skinny - and I'm dripping in sweat and not looking so cute! I could have smack her. I know I've made progress, when I started at the gym it took me 30 minutes to walk a mile, now I can walk 2 miles in 35 minutes. Hold the applause to the end. I'm trying so hard but I feel like I'm not making progress. I know it took me years to put on the weight - but just wish it would come off faster.
OK - I'm done complaining - I feel better now.